Fat?

People keep saying i'm skinny, yet my family calls me fat(or at least one person). But why does it even matter? It's not like i'm going to die if I don't care about my looks enough to do more exercise. So I don't like sports enough, like some people are convinced, everyone else in the world does. Why does it even matter what we look like? It's not going to change how we live our lives, because if I really want to do something I will.

Issues

Everyone seems so worried about all the issues around us, yet no one cares. We'll talk about how worried we are about all the things going on with the world, but what are we doing about it. I'm not doing anything eaither, but at least I know I really don't care. I know it won't affect my life time, so I don't worry about it. I will give a dollar to the salvation army or for the uganda project, but that's as much as i care for any of it. It seems that alot of people are like that, there are few who care anymore. They try to convince me to care about things that have nothing to do with me, so they won't get me to care. Yet my heart still pulls away at the thought of children younger than me going out to war or watching their parents die in front of their eyes. I can't really decied if i care or not.

Loveless

I'm fine without some one to love, but that does not mean I do not yearn for it too. I am fine alone, but some company from some one other than my friends would be nice, a fresh new perspective. Some one to know me for who I am, and apperciate me all the same. But that is what everyone wants, so I will sit and wait my turn, because as I typed, I'm fine alone, for now.

Tired

I get so tired when my mind has nothing to think. When I have nothing to preoccupied myself with I start to slip. I slip into a luning sleep where I can remove my mask. Sleep, dreams. They both sound so appealing, when you work so hard to hide. To hide what I really am, so you won't hurt. But who am I trying to protect, yourself or others. But would others know the diffrence if I took my mask off, the only ones who would know are the ones who I have shown my true self. But have I ever shown anyone? I just want to go back to sleep, my nice warm, soothing sleep.