Alright

It's so easy to lie about simple things. Some one asks you how you're day has been and you respond alright. It doesn't matter how horrible you're day has been, you say alright. You say alright and there's nothing more to it. Even if it's a lie, you can forget everything else for a second and believe the lie you've told because in the eyes of the person who asked, there is nothing more. It's a sad sort of comfort that's gone in a flash, but it is there. Everyone needs an alright every now and then, because talking about the problems you have and thinking about them over and over never really solves anything.

Freinds

My friends can get on my nerves. They care, but sometimes they don't care enough. It's like, when I want, need, attention they choose to leave me be, but when I need to be left alone they crowd me till I can't breath. Right now, I just need people, besides my family, to be around me so that I won't feel forgotten, but as always during break, my connections with people have broken off to something barely recognizable. If I have to make the only effort to connect with people, why should I bother. If they don't want to bother calling, why should I?

Thinking

When I'm alone with my thoughts they tend to wonder in various places. I have thought of a million things that I would never actually go through with, which is a good thing. But is it because I'm to cowardly to act on my thoughts or not strong enough to control my thoughts? (Yeah, this is a mega short one)

Free

I am free to be doomed, if I wish. I am free to continue, if I wish. If you do not know my wishes then you can do nothing for me, for you may go against my wish. Though what some do I can not control and some wishes may not be granted. Through the screams of lives I will scream my wish louder, and if others raise their voices I shall too. (yes this doesn't make any sense)

Urge

Being put down, and ignoring it. But then breaking down myself later, crying in my bed, silently so no one could here, till I fell asleep. Then getting back up the next morning pretending everything is fine, as if I have never broken down. Because I know if I break down others will follow, and that's not me being self centered. But if I continue to never show what I feel, it will still hurt other. Mixed emotions become the urge, the strong urge to fix it all, but also the urge to make all the pain stop. But I would never give in to the urge, for it comes at the end of my break down, and when I'm starting to think clearly. I would never give into it, but find rational reasons to stop it from coming. I'd do the same for my friends, family, and any stranger I met, because no one should give into the urge.

Arguing

It builds from irritation, even from the littlest things that you don't think bothering you. Also comes from having something or some one threatened that you care for, or this may also be something of yourself or about feelings. What this arguing does is separate, destroy, and many other corrupted things. Many things are caused from arguments, but they can be overcomed, but most people are to stubborn to solve fights.

Depressed

I know that i might seem a little negitive sometimes, but I am not depressed in any way. I like the negative way to think, but I won't act on it. And just because when i'm sick and its pollen season, doesn't mean i'm depressed. My mom had brought this up when she sa i wasn't feeling good, but illness is not a sign of depression, is it? But the point is my way of thinking, or the fact that i'm tired after going to school and walking home while i'm sick, should not lead anyone to think i'm depressed.